Love, again…

What would it feel like to experience love as a 40 year old? To feel that same passion, the same adrenaline spike through your heart. But with a different person. You would have thought love wasn’t meant for you again. Sitting right beside your sick mother, you realised that day, what world you lived in….

I Promised Myself a Dream

“And then, the swallow who resigned itself to the ground. Perhaps, will one day forget to gaze up at the sky too” “The swallow is well aware. That a place sheltered from the rain, is a place hidden from the sun….”-After The Rain (Anime 2018) After The Rain seems like a romantic love anime halfway but…

Achilles’ Secret – A Poetry

Yesterday, I was dying.I fellso fast,black and wet,incomplete.With a scarf around my neck,I became the patchy rain.As beautiful and elegant as Narcissus.Falling hard, to clear the fog out,the make believe fog in my hands.I fell, so I could find the people I lost.Falling through a burned house,my lips parched, searching for thirst. The burned house,…

Digital art stuff

Originally I had planned to just write the title “Digital art stuff” for fun and as a joke… But I don’t think it’s a joke anymore 😩 So if it wasn’t obvious enough. Ever since I started my journey as an artist/writer/whatever the heck. I have ALWAYS been in love with art and my doodles….

Kiss like real people do…

On the fifth night, you were still digging. Your hair, whispering something silent and sad…You were searching for something you buried six months ago, something that would hurt more than August. On the seventh night, you found a gem.And on the eighth, your lost immortality on the other side of Ymir’s skull.The eleventh night, your…

Konnichiwa! minnasama

Guess who’s freakin back after doing nothing for 2 whole months? Not me, I did a lot of things like you know– washed the dishes and embarassed myself.  But it was normal, it wasn’t sad or anything, I was just fine. in fact, i realised i was “just fine” because of my parents. I did well…

Addressing something important..? (+ youTube channel)

Heyy Spadoinkers!! I hope each and everyone of you had a great February and are having a great year so far. So it’s been a while since I’ve last updated whatever’s going on in my life over here and honestly I’m in a much better mindset than I think I’ve ever been in. It’s not…

Here’s to a beautiful year!

Let’s talk! 2020 “I am nowhere, where you left me. Two thousand and twenty miles away, and Stronger.” Two thousand twenty has been an unique and scary year for most of us, if not all. Big Surprise! Not just the things that happened on a massive scale including the protests, pandemic, disasters but small things…

7 billion Beautiful stars…

This does not feel like healing. Can’t I hear myself….. My thighs have become rotten pink, and grey memories of your heartbreak surround me. Eyes still feel like a small girl trying to find her mother in war. Your empty room does not smell like the orange weather, it’s starting to smell a lot like…

About Taking Breaks…

This photo ‘down here’ is something I did/took, like a week ago and I like it sooo much. Do you? At this point, I think I’ve taken more breaks than actually being consistent. And being consistent is actually so important in real life and especially online. It affects your growth so much. But I guess…