Lost in my House

I’ve been lost too many times now. Lost in my own house where I was too scared to open the door outside.

Every time I left home, it hurt but I learned something. This time, I’m learning to decorate my body. I’m learning to keep to myself the leaves and branches that I used to gift you.

I’m learning to gift myself the dead flowers and paste them in this journal, in this book unaware of you.

I’ve been lost too many times now. Lost in my own house, this time not scared to open the door. Because, home holds me down, holds me down to something and someone I’m afraid of.

Home reminds me of the end of the world.

घर छोड़ना है🥀 (I want to leave Home)

A short and sweet(maybe) poetry but….

I started to art journal / decorate my art journal. Wanted to this for almost a year now. But one of my friends gifted me this and uffff I’m so happy.

Also this is my first art journalling thing🌺🌺🌺🌺🥺. Hope you like it.

The journal looks like this by the way. It’s Van Gogh, how could it get any better than thissss🥺🥺🥺🌺🌺🌻🌻

I’m really REALLY happy about it.

Haven’t caught up with you all. Tell me, what’s up? I know my audience over here at wordpress has decreased but I just don’t know. I don’t feel like it to post or be on wordpress more. Ahhh I don’t know.


Thanks (×infinity) for reading.

And take care of yourselves

15 Comments Add yours

  1. Sidharth says:

    Sometimes we have to be lost so that we can rediscover ourselves. A wonderful post loved the creative way in which you decorated this post with such glorious emotions. Good to see you back on WordPress 👍😁

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    1. Sid says:

      Uufff. Thank you so much for the read brother. 🌺🌺🌺💖❤️🌻

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  2. Nour R. says:

    I LOVED this. It felt soft. Tender. (Looks at the piece that I wrote about how misery is a drug) Anways our writings are not in sync 😂
    The idea of home being a toxic place is such an irony..but it’s an important distinction of what home is right now and what it is supposed to be. I don’t know if this makes sense 😂
    P.S I GOT GLASSES. I look like a total nerd. Idk why I’m saying this okay I’m not okay

    Also if you left wordpress then how will I interact with you and your posts? :c I dun have insta

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    1. Sid says:

      Nooo!!! I’m not leaving wordpress. I don’t want to lose my friends here😭.

      Also, speaking of glasses I got a new frame. I had glasses earlier so…. I took cooler ones. Hopefully this works out well

      Thank you so much 🥺🌺. Yes, I believe Home is a static place where one should not stay for long. Home should keep changing.


      1. Nour R. says:

        You better not -.- :3

        Ou really? What colour? This is my first time and I think I chose really well

        Oh dayum 😂 you’re right. It’s a weird concept.

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      2. Sid says:

        It’s like a faint black sort of. In reality home should not change that often though, izzz frickin expensive. I don’t know how we’re going to afford our own houses 😩


      3. Nour R. says:

        Ah black didnt work with me sadly. It really is 😂 IDK but rule is to start small. So you rent a small apartment or sumn then as the income increases (if it does that is) you think of going to bigger apartments and eventually houses. It does take forever to actually own one tho

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      4. Sid says:

        Woaahh!! You into property market?😂 Coincidentally I’ve been reading some finance stuff recently too. I don’t know why. My friend writes all this stuff and I read for passing my time.


      5. Nour R. says:

        God no 😂😂 I just listen to people around me. Someone’s joining the adult worlddd😂😂 Reading grown up stuff eh

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      6. Sid says:

        I’m 19nnnn. Please believe my age 😂😭😭😭😭🌺🌺🌺


      7. Nour R. says:

        Old old man 😂

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  3. Lost in your own house, too afraid to open the door… That’s a familiar feeling…
    Your journal looks awesome, by the way. 🙂

    Sorry, I’ve been a bit all over the place myself, and I’ve missed a lot of things…

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    1. Sid says:

      It’s okay! And thank you so much for the Beautiful comment 🥺🥺🥺🥺❤️

      Liked by 1 person

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