4th August, Midnight

5th August, 12:49 am. Midnight.

One day now. The pain is a bit less. Will soon vanish away.
My golden tears froze half their way across my cheeks. Running out of tears.

Don’t want it to go. Don’t want you to go.
Wanted you, I still love you.

Want this pain to stay. I want something that reminds me of you to be engraved on my body. But this pain seems to be leaving me, slowly just like you.

And I’ll be empty. Again.

Slowly, I’ll forget about you. My wounds will start healing.
The places where you touched will start melting away. And there will be just me.

मेरे होने पे मुजको यकीन आगया ( I realised the existence of me)

Will you forget about me?


Things are happening. World is happening. 🥺🥺

I couldn’t write much the past week, let alone be active on wordpress.

So I apologise. I might post once every week for a while. Ran out of stuff.

Thank you(×infinity) for reading

I’m trying to make something happy out of your art🌺

Let’s see how that goes…..

18 Comments Add yours

  1. Ah, I can feel the words. This is spectacular.. I can take the liberty to say that I’ve felt the same way, that pain is the only thing that remains as a reminder. Take care Sid!

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    1. Sid says:

      Thank you so much. Feels good someone can relate. 🥺🥺🥺🌺♥️

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  2. This is so beautiful. I loved the line ‘And I’ll be empty. Again.’

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    1. Sid says:

      Ooof! Thank you SO much😭😭😭🥺🧁🌹

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  3. Yiena says:

    You reached a point with your love where there is no way back lol 😭 🙈

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  4. Sid says:

    Yess😭😭 relatable. Thanks for the read🥺🥺🥺🌹

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  5. Nour R. says:

    I thought of something other than romantic love. I thought of how some poeple sabotage their life or themselves on purpose bc an emotional wound healed and they don’t know who they are anymore. Who this unbroken person was. They existed with pain for so long and when it was gone its like an integral part of them was also gone and they don’t know what to do with the rest of themselves. So they hurt. Again. And the once healed place is now scarred, and they fall into the safe comfortable cocoon of suffrage, yet now it’s a conscious choice of theirs, which makes it even worse.

    Theres someone in my life who does that over and over again, and they don’t want to get better. They’ll remain depressed and suicidal because they don’t want to change, don’t want help…and because of that they started doing manipulative and toxic things.

    Anyways, that was dark 😂 I can’t find it in me to write either tbh. I’m just so tired of the assignments. This year will be me absent most of the time prolly and I dun like it :c

    Here’s some mangoes tho 🥭🥭

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    1. Sid says:

      I think I’m kind of that person. It’s like I breathe of off sadness. Definitely not a good thing.

      It’s like the sadness and the wounds have become the person’s identity. And he doesn’t know how to get out of this state. I means he could and he definitely can but once he does he’ll feel lost.

      I believe that he’ll feel lost but he’ll find his way again. He shouldn’t be scared of healing. Just because He gets lost. Life will bring him home again.

      Wow I can’t believe I spoke something so mature 😂.
      But heyyy thanks so much ♥️♥️♥️🥺🍎

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      1. Nour R. says:

        Ou wow that was profound 😂
        Aren’t you like almost 19 or sumn? Oh dayum I’m 4 years younger I just realized that 😂😂
        🍇🍉

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      2. Sid says:

        Yeaaahh😭😭😭😭. Thanks for making me realise 😂🥺

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  6. Nawazish says:

    Beautiful!!❤❤

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    1. Sid says:

      Thank you♥️♥️

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  7. Cookie Girl says:

    Wow, that’s really beautiful! Keep it up! ~Srisha xx

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    1. Sid says:

      Ooof thank you so much ❤️❤️❤️♥️♥️🌹

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  8. Nathi says:

    This is so heart wrenchingly beautiful and highly relatable!
    Take care, Sid✨💜

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  9. Sid says:

    You too take care 🥺🥺. Thank you SO much ❤️❤️♥️🌹

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  10. Geri Lawhon says:

    Superb. I love th lines, “Want this pain to stay. I want something that reminds me of you to be engraved on my body. But this pain seems to be leaving me, slowly just like you.” Great post.

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    1. Sid says:

      Oh wow!! This really means a lot. Thank you so much. 💝💝💟💟💟

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