A letter to light

/A letter to light/

Noor,
If my letters don’t even reach you and neither do my poems, why am I still writing? For whom am I still writing? Sometimes I believe that the only thing that reaches your body these days are arms pressing your neck. Arms with no faces, just hands and my spit dripping down them.

You smell like sense, the least of which I like. I’d rather smother my body in my boyfriend’s arms who’s trying to kill himself than to smell you. To make sense of what home is to me, I’d have to paint my lips of the same sense which I despise. But my lips are dry, no matter how much whiskey I let them taste.

Noor, for you, poetries were like painting your eyes pink so that people wouldn’t notice how emotionless you were.
Writing was like breathing hot breath into my ears whispering roses, each of them with a name. None named after me.

For me, a poetry was your eyes looking into mine.

ู†ูˆุฑ
Noor, I don’t love you. I just wish you hadn’t arrested my soul in your art journal. I wish I wouldn’t smell you in everything I touched. I wish I could find you again for the last time, and give you all of these letters which I forgot to post.

With hope,
From the boy who’s getting more comfortable with his skin


No art for this one. Was just tired. ๐Ÿ˜ต๐Ÿ˜ต.

I feel like writing letters nowadays. I don’t know why. ๐Ÿน๐Ÿน๐Ÿ•บ Tell me what you think of this one. This is the third post I’ve done in a sort of regular-ish manner. I feel happy about this. ๐ŸŒบ

Thanks (ร—infinity) for reading.

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  1. Nour R. says:

    “my spit dripping down them” What is even happening ๐Ÿ˜‚

    “To make sense of what home is to me, Iโ€™d have to paint my lips of the same sense which I despise. But my lips are dry, no matter how much whiskey I let them taste.” OOF. I love that paragraph. Some of which we do doesn’t hold any logic or sense and yet we still do them. I wonder if that’s the perfect defintion of what it means to love.

    “None named after me.” If you were asked to name a rose/flower relating to you, what would you name it?

    “For me, a poetry was your eyes looking into mine.” That’s such a beautiful sentence ๐Ÿ˜ญ๐Ÿ˜ญ

    “From the boy whoโ€™s getting more comfortable with his skin” yasss I support

    Also this word is so weird to read bc it has really embarassing memories attached to it ”
    ู†ูˆุฑ” ๐Ÿ˜‚๐Ÿ˜‚

    Also she or he has a beautiful name :33 ๐Ÿ˜‚๐Ÿ˜‚

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    1. Sid says:

      The spit line is my favourite,๐Ÿ˜‚๐Ÿ˜‚๐Ÿ˜‚. I don’t even know why I added that.

      Oooof thank for such a beautiful comment. ๐Ÿฅบ๐Ÿฅบ๐Ÿฅบโ™ฅ๏ธโ™ฅ๏ธโ™ฅ๏ธโ™ฅ๏ธโ™ฅ๏ธ

      Maybe! Or maybe love doesn’t have a perfect general definition. Maybe nothing has a perfect general definition. maybe this world is a lie.

      I’d name the flower ‘Arse biscuits’ sorry just kidding. I don’t know honestly. Ummmm….. I’d name it after my crush for now at least. Aaah I spent way too much time thinking on this.

      Oooof thank๐Ÿฅบ๐Ÿฅบ๐Ÿฅบ๐Ÿ˜‚โ™ฅ๏ธโ™ฅ๏ธโ™ฅ๏ธ. Thanks for the support ๐Ÿ˜‚โ™ฅ๏ธโ™ฅ๏ธโ™ฅ๏ธโ™ฅ๏ธ๐Ÿ“

      Noor is a beautiful name๐Ÿ˜‚๐Ÿ˜‚๐Ÿ˜‚๐Ÿ˜‚๐Ÿ˜‚.
      Someday tell me the story behind embarasment๐Ÿ˜ฉ๐Ÿ˜ฉ

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      1. Nour R. says:

        The writer himself does.not know why writes..great ๐Ÿ˜‚

        I read somewhere that a definition doesn’t allow possibility of change or sumn like that and I think love follows that statement in which it cannot be described in all its ways and forms by one sentence

        I’m sorry but that’s such a British name ๐Ÿ˜‚ But like you might have a different crush later so it’s so temporary no?

        It’s going to be really hard to explain bc I’ve to translate since the situation went down and Arabic and humor gets lost in translation but it’s okay I’ll try later on ๐Ÿ˜‚๐Ÿ˜‚

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      2. Sid says:

        That is a beautiful way to put it. Both the second ๐ŸŒบ๐Ÿ‰โ™ฅ๏ธ๐Ÿ“ and the first paragraph ๐Ÿ˜‚๐ŸŒบ๐ŸŒบ๐ŸŒบ.

        Yes. It’s temporary, I’d want to name it something that taught me to do more art and write more. So for now it’s my crush. Maybe in the future, something else? I dunno.

        Okay okay๐Ÿ˜‚๐Ÿ˜‚๐Ÿ˜‚๐Ÿ˜‚. I’ve watched some Arab memes alright and that’s funny. ๐Ÿ˜‚โ™ฅ๏ธโ™ฅ๏ธ

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      3. Nour R. says:

        Are you trying to learn about the “Arab Culture” or what ๐Ÿ˜‚๐Ÿ˜‚

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      4. Sid says:

        Nahh! Just in it for the memes. But it would be interesting though ๐Ÿ˜ฉ๐ŸŒบ๐ŸŒบ๐ŸŒบ

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      5. Nour R. says:

        Getting the best of both worlds eh ๐Ÿ˜‚

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    1. Sid says:

      Ooooooof!!!!!! You are such a kind Pikachu. Thank you so much for this. โ™ฅ๏ธโ™ฅ๏ธโ™ฅ๏ธ๐Ÿ‰๐Ÿ‰๐ŸŒบ๐ŸŒบ๐ŸŒบ๐Ÿ‰

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  2. Yiena says:

    Is this written about Nour from Restless? ๐Ÿ˜ถ btw are you an Arab or do you speak it? This curiousity of mine is killing me lol anyway, nicely written ~๐ŸŒธ๐Ÿ™ˆ

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    1. Sid says:

      Thank youuu๐Ÿง๐Ÿง๐Ÿง. No this is not for Nour๐Ÿ˜‚๐Ÿ‰๐Ÿ‰. I mean maybe it is I dunno.

      I speak like 10 arab words. Not much. I’m not arabic.

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      1. Yiena says:

        Ow okay~ ๐Ÿฅฐ

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  3. Writing letters is fun.. I guess. I want to try it out too.

    About this letter, it’s great! I love this line “For me, poetry was your eyes looking into mine”

    How can you create so vivid magical images, I wonder.. but I like it. Also, yes, I am glad that you have now getting comfortable in your own skinโค๏ธ

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    1. Sid says:

      Oooof thank you so much Ramyani. This really means a lot. I am trying at least to get more comfortable ๐Ÿฅบโ™ฅ๏ธโ™ฅ๏ธโ™ฅ๏ธ

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      1. Yes, we all try. I am trying too (not much success though)

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      2. Sid says:

        We don’t try to achieve succes. We try to get better at its. Success will always be far away. Aaaah Was this too philosophical

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      3. Noo. Sucsess is relative and when we achieve something, success moves further away ๐Ÿ˜

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      4. Sid says:

        Yeaah actually. Stupid me๐Ÿ˜ฉ

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    1. Sid says:

      โ™ฅ๏ธโ™ฅ๏ธโ™ฅ๏ธโ™ฅ๏ธ

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