Strawberry Crush

My loneliness reminds me of your heart these days. Uncertain, Broken and Cold. It haunts me when the night creeps on. Like a blanket, it covers me and I pull it further on to not let it eat the monsters under my bed.

I realise that I don’t turn my lights on in the dark these days. Because that would make me see the shit I did to myself. The patches on my skin have started falling off. I’m trying to scream but my throat’s dried out, my sneezes are nothing but leftover spores from the flowers I ate this morning. I’ve switched the lights off to not see my failures.

I’d rather escape these feelings in the dark than to face them in the light.

I’d rather cut my wrists and pour my blood to create heaven and hell on paper. Than to face the world for what it is. Than to start falling in love with you again. But I’ve decided not to hurt myself over you anymore.

Dear A, I’m scared of this world, I’m scared of you. I’m scared of what has become of me and what will become of me tomorrow. What scares me even more these days is that there will be a tomorrow, there can’t always be night. The world is not ending anymore and I still love you.

I want to run away.

I want to be with the darkness one day. With the darkness that lets me hide my feelings without letting the light on.
Dear A, I want to go home, wherever home is.

Dear A, stop sucking the nectar out of my nipples and take me home. Just open the door and let me lick the strawberry crush inside your eyes.

I’m not scared anymore.


My hand is fat and I want to get away.

Nothing to say. Will keep posting soon πŸ“β™₯️

Thank you(Γ—infinity) for reading.

17 Comments Add yours

    1. Sid says:

      thank youuuuβ™₯️β™₯️β™₯️β™₯οΈπŸ‰

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  1. Yiena says:

    Wow~ i loved how the intensity kept leveling up through the piece and until the end of it~ πŸ’•

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    1. Sid says:

      Oooof!! Thanks a lotβ™₯️β™₯️β™₯️β™₯οΈπŸ“

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      1. Yiena says:

        Oooof! Don’t mention it dear~ πŸ˜‚πŸ™ˆπŸ’•πŸŒΈπŸ’

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      2. Sid says:

        Deer πŸ˜‚πŸ‰πŸ‰

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  2. Nour R. says:

    “I’m scared of what has become of me and what will become of me tomorrow”
    Ouch. I wrote a piece relating to this and I haven’t published it. Just ouch. It scares me, to imagine someone asking me to tell my life story and all I remember is the bad things, the new/old me. I mean, if my life is full of shadows then there must’ve been a light. And to remember the things I’ve thought and wrote and did…sometimes, it’s too much. I loved this piece..it’s quite haunting. I’m listening to dark metal music so I’m already in the mood πŸ˜‚

    Also your hand isn’t fat stawp it -.- my pinkie is naturally about 5 (or more idk) cm apart from the finger next to it (I can make the distance smaller but that would take conscious action). So there. Hands shall unite together πŸ˜‚ this was so random oml

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    1. Sid says:

      Oh godd!! The story of our lives would be such a hard thing to tell. All the bad things oooof. That would be so aaaaahh!! Don’t wanna talk about it. πŸ˜‚πŸ₯Ί

      Dark metal music. Everytim you just keep on adding adjectives to the music you’re listening πŸ₯ΊπŸ₯ΊπŸ˜‚

      Also the last para of this comment was fun. Made me smile. πŸ˜‚πŸ˜‚πŸ˜‚Random oml. Why does ‘oml’ make me smileπŸ˜‚

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      1. Nour R. says:

        No one’s forcing you to πŸ˜‚πŸ˜‚πŸ˜‚

        My playlist is just too diverse πŸ˜‚ Trap, pop, hip hop, metal, rock, heavy metal πŸ˜‚πŸ˜‚πŸ˜‚

        Bc it’s part of my stupid slang πŸ˜‚ Yknow these poeple that can bend their thumb until it reaches their wrist/radius? I can do that with my left hand but not my right. I’ve never typed this and it sounds so weird πŸ˜‚πŸ˜‚ So yes my cartilage is not evenly spread to my two fingers. No one asked about that but I said it anyways πŸ˜‚

        Curse me kilts I need to go out and socialize I’m getting way too weird πŸ˜‚

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      2. Sid says:

        Cartilage made me laugh.πŸ˜‚πŸ˜‚πŸ˜‚πŸ˜‚like legit. I don’t even know why.

        Oh god you have a nice music taste 😭😭😭😭😭β™₯️β™₯️β™₯️β™₯️β™₯️.

        I wish I had this. Idk😩β™₯️β™₯οΈπŸ˜‚

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      3. Nour R. says:

        I think you’re either high or drunk πŸ˜‚

        I know :3 *ego inflates instantly*

        It’s not that special or useful πŸ˜‚πŸ˜‚

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      4. Sid says:

        At least you can boast to people about it😩😩😩

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      5. Nour R. says:

        Actually most people cringe and look away…so πŸ˜‚πŸ˜‚

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      6. Sid says:

        😩😩😩😩

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  3. I love this because I can relate to this. Darkness lies, yet it’s a refuge from the reality, from myself. Every lines speaks to me.

    I don’t know if I wish the world was ending but I do wish that there won’t be a tomorrow..

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    1. Sid says:

      Ooof! Wwow. Don’t think this way please. There’s always hope, I believe someday we’ll all reach home.

      Thank you so much for reading though β™₯️β™₯️

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